Originally Posted by Therrin

Yesterday morning (about 3am) I woke up with my heart racing and pounding, my head splitting, body going numb and tingling, pain in my chest, and this overwhelming sense of dread that I couldn't shake, just kept getting worse. Shortness of breath, uncontrollable shaking, vomiting, etc etc....
I was absolutely convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I didn't get to a hospital, I was gonna die.

Had my friend rush me to the ER, they checked me out, everything came back normal. No heart problems, no infection in my lungs, nada. My pulse was up around 160 and my BP was skyhigh.

Apparently I had a "panick attack".... which is "common" but not typically deadly. No idea of the cause, just happened outta the blue. They said "it happens".... then put me on a bunch of stuff to "calm and elevate my mood".

If it weren't for that, I'd be feeling terrible right now. I hate feeling JUST FINE and knowing that I should be feeling terrible. I don't know how to feel. I almost feel like I'd be splitting apart at the seams but they aren't letting me.

So I suppose I'll float off to bed and think happy thoughts.
I kinda wish I knew how I was supposed to be really feeling, just for myself, but I don't know what that feels like. =( I'm so confused.


Work and just kinda, everything, have been slipping away for the past couple weeks. I just got over having pneumonia, and I was really restless about getting things going again, and then this happens.

Any advice?